Evolving Friendships: It Doesn’t Have To Be Goodbye

It’s a hard thing to admit when you’ve lost your best friend. One of you has gotten married and had babies and the other single and working on their career. Neither of you are falling behind or making bad choices, you have just found yourselves on different paths. Friendships change. It isn’t anything you planned, it’s time and space being a mega bitch. It happens. It is happening and it fucking hurts.

You used to tell each other everything and now you find things out from Facebook with everyone else they’re “cool with”. They make new besties and you see all of their posts and adventures and most of you is happy for them. They’re happy. That’s all that should matter.

She’s okay without you.

That is a hard pill to swallow. I’m not okay without you. We used to have dance offs in middle school. Road trips when you moved in high school. Trips to the beach with 90s pop music blasting. My third kid is supposed to have your real middle name.

How did we let this happen?

I guess it’s my fault. I got married and had kids. I can’t take off with you the way others can. You always have to come to me. That’s not fair, I know it. I don’t have any other options. So what do i do? Pout and cry and make you feel bad for simply living your life? Or do I just find away to move on without you? I don’t know how to do that. I wasn’t prepared for that. I’m not prepared for that. I’m not ready for goodbye.

Maybe the words I’m looking for are “see you later” because I can’t imagine the rest of my life without you. I don’t think you want that either. That door will never close.

So for now, See You Later.

Love always,